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“I left her in the gully,” he disclosed sullenly.  “She wheezed, gasped, coughed and died on the trail comin’ home. I pushed her too hard and no amount of grinding her gears or sweet talkin’ was gonna get her to climb that hill. In the end, her heart gave out – it just blew up. Guess you could say I killed the old girl.”

“You did not let your son or any of your relatives or friends know she’d passed, correct?”

“Naw, there wasn’t any point,” he shook his head sadly. “Nobody really cared about her ‘cept me so there was no call for grievin’ or letters of condolence.  She had a good life. I’ll remember her fondly.”

“Tell me what you remember,” the inquisitive young man encouraged. “And, why did you leave her in the bottom of a coulee?”

The older man leaned back against a fence post, stroked a day’s worth of whiskery growth on his chin then pulled his well worn cowboy hat down over his forehead. A wry grin spread across his face.  He crossed his long legs clad with faded denim jeans and Tony Lama boots which had clearly seen better days then reached into the pocket of his shirt to pull out a pack of cigarettes.  He lit one, drew deeply then exhaled staring toward gulley. There wasn’t an ounce of regret or guilt to be seen on his weathered old face.

“We called her Old Blue,” he stated simply.  A twinkle had developed in his brown eyes.

“She was a 1959 Dodge Step-Side D-100, with a flathead six motor.  Three on the tree shift on the steering column.  Manual steering or as we liked to call it back in the day, strong arm steering!”  A wide grin had spread across the cowboy’s face.  He shuffled forward on his Tony Lama’s and crushed the butt end of his cigarette into the prairie grass, fully extinguishing it.

He cleared his throat.  “She was navy blue in color and would have been a beaut new, but she’d already been fairly worn in by the time my Dad brought her home.  She was weathered; some of her shine was worn off.  It didn’t matter none to us.  We were more than proud to have her.  Anyhow, her being dull and worn, that’s why we dubbed her Old Blue.  She would have been ten or twelve years old when Dad drove her into the yard, ‘cause my sister and I started driving her when we were only about nine or ten ourselves.”

The cowboy’s face changed and his voice turned more serious. 

“Things weren’t as regimented as they are now.  Parent’s needed the entire family’s help on the farm.  We grew up quicker – stronger and freer, you could say.  The land here on the Alberta prairie was wider, more open, less fences.  Most roads were gravel or non-existent which meant you followed someone else’s rough trail or made your own through the country.  And, a lot of times, we did just that – especially in the winter – roads would be completely drifted in for miles, so we detoured across the prairie where we could at least dodge the large snow drifts or buck through the smaller ones.  You see, out here, the wind is vicious. It pushes snow along the flatland until it catches something to cling to or it will accumulate or settle into low lying areas like gulley’s or coulees. The gravel roads became impassable because the snow would accumulate in the ditches and drift across the road.  Graders were few to none in those days.  People always carried shovels, chains and tow ropes in the winter months. We didn’t take the old girl out much in the winter.  Her heater didn’t work well so we bundled up tight and sat close for warmth. But, I’m getting ahead of myself,” he stopped talking and leaned back against the fence post. “My point is that parents started their kids driving and the like a lot younger back then.  They had adult responsibilities and were trusted to certain jobs without constant supervision.  We were a lot freer when I was growing up and we worked hard.  Now days, people want to bubble wrap their children and do everything for them.  They don’t learn how to be responsible.  But, I digress, you don’t want to hear about that,” he pushed up his cowboy hat and scratched his head revealing a thick swath of silvering hair.

“Back to Old Blue,” he continued.

 “As I was saying; I was only about nine or ten when I started driving Old Blue, ripping up and down the prairie fields.  Her top speed was about 70 mph but I never dared to top her out.  She was a rough old girl with leaf springs and a straight axel front end.  Driving her was like trying to herd a bunch of cattle down the road. You had to be quick thinking to even keep her on those old dirt roads! If you hit a pot hole too hard you’d rap your head on the inside of the cab! The clutch, brake and gas pedal went straight through the floor.  The rubber around them had rotted away and you could see the ground below as you drove.  At times we got completely dusted out because the tires would kick the dirt right up through those holes.” 

He started to laugh.

“And, the passenger door flew open if you took a hard left!  Back then, there were no such things as seat belts, so at times, you had to reach over and yank the passenger back in to save their life!  That old truck took a lot of abuse.  The passenger fender was all bent up and bolted back on because my mother had Old Blue in reverse accidently then backed her into a tree and tore it off. For reverse, you pushed the clutch in with your left foot as you pulled the shift on the steering column towards the steering wheel and up. For first, you pulled toward the steering wheel then down.  Second shift was push up towards the dash then third was toward the dash and down. You had to push that clutch down before you shifted every time and give ‘er the gas especially for first or reverse or she’d stall out. My mother was famous for stalling that truck out going up hills.  I’m actually surprised to this day that I’m still alive to tell the tale – my mother was an atrocious driver which is why my sister and I were determined to start driving!” The old cowboy chuckled and shook his head. “She even bounced us off of the end gate a time or two while berry picking. We’d pick ourselves up off of the ground spitting dirt and go running after the truck because she never thought to check the mirrors to see if we were still there!”

“Anyhow, starting that truck,” he paused, “we weren’t very tall yet when we first started driving, so we had to shimmy forward on the seat to reach the pedals.  Vehicles now days are all fuel injected, mostly you turn a key or push a button and they start immediately; everything is computerized. Being a ’59 Dodge Step-Side, Old Blue didn’t start that way.  The first thing you did was turn the key.  If it was cold, you pulled out the choke located on the dash then pumped the gas pedal twice – on the left side of the floor above the dimmer switch was another pedal that you pushed with your foot, which was the ignition.  Normally, once you depressed the ignition she’d fire right up. Of course you needed to push the choke back in and give ‘er some gas to keep her going until she idled down.  The trick was not stalling it after putting her in gear. We gave ourselves whiplash to begin with! As soon as we figured that out we were gold. Slowing her down and getting her to stop was easy.  To slow down, you only needed to push on the brake. To stop, you pushed in the clutch and depressed the brake. At first, we were only allowed to drive Old Blue around the farm and out into the fields either to take meals to the men or to go to work ourselves.  I’d take her out and go stook bales during haying season or check cattle in the spring, summer and fall.  Sometimes, I’d take her out hunting gophers and the like. After I got a bit older and grew a little more, I drove all over the back roads and ripped up the prairie trails with my buddies.  During the hot summer days, we would all pile in Old Blue and go down to the river or to an irrigation ditch swimming. There was no such thing as air-conditioned vehicles.  You rolled the windows down and put the pedal to the medal,” he chuckled. “The back of the box would be filled with inner tubes and kids, the adults would pile in the front seat along with the smaller children and picnic lunches.  You can’t ride in the box of a half-ton anymore either – safety reasons apparently.  But, we did it all of the time back in the day. That old ’59 Dodge had a good life!  She was mine for many a year. Sometimes, I think she went downhill faster than she ever went up one – sometimes in reverse!  She didn’t quite have the power needed to crawl up steep hills. Especially on the day she died.  She wheezed, gasped, coughed, choked and rolled down the gully into a bed of wolf willow before I could stop her. That’s where she died. Is there anything else you want to know about her?” the old cowboy looked at the younger man bemused.

“Why didn’t you tow her out of there?” The younger man questioned.

“Well, she had smoke billowing out of her engine, I sorta felt like she’d just had a heart-attack. And, I felt ashamed, kinda like I’d murdered a friend. The plan was always to go down and get her but that year we had an early winter with a ton of snow.  In the spring it was too wet and as life is, I just got busy.  She wasn’t a priority I already had a different truck.  One that was newer.  In the end, I thought it best to let the prairie claim her. It’s where she belonged.”

“Did you know that between 1957-1959 Dodge only produced about 2,500 of those trucks and that they are a highly sought-after collector’s item?  I mean the market value due to their rarity if they are well-restored, can reach high prices! One 1957 model, for example, sold for over $85,000.00,” the younger  man stated incredulous.

“Well now is that so…,” the old cowboy reached into his shirt pocket and pulled out his pack of cigarettes then lit one in an attempt to hide his amusement.  The younger man was dressed much like himself except for the ball cap on his head and work boots on his feet. Judging by the insignia on his newer Chevy 4 x 4 he was coming from the oilfield. The cowboy wasn’t sure what it was about this young guy but he liked the set of him. He seemed to have some grit and looked to be a hard worker. At the moment, his face was animated and his blue eyes sparkled.

“Old Blue isn’t much of an heirloom where she sits now son,” he chuckled.  “But, if memories were dollar bills, I reckon she’d be priceless.”

“Would you sell her?”

“Oh hell no,” the cowboy laughed. “You look like you have integrity.  Are you a man of your word?”

“Yes, sir,” the young man nodded.

“Well then, if you’re looking for a big restoration project, I’ll help you tow her up out of the gulley.  The deal is once she’s refurbished and if you’re able to get her running again, I’d sure like to go for one last ride in her. If you’re amiable, we’ll shake hands on it. The way I was raised, people trusted their neighbors and they looked out for one another.  If you shake hands, that means keeping your word same as any contract now-a-day.”

The younger man reached out and calloused hand met calloused hand. A firm hand-shake ensued.

Before he left the younger man reached into the top pocket of his shirt and handed the old cowboy a card with his name and phone number. 

“I’ve often wondered about the story that rusted, abandoned truck had to tell.  I hope I’m able to make a few more stories for her in the future.  Thanks for telling me about her.  I’ll be back in a couple of days for Old Blue if that’s alright.”

The old cowboy smiled, tucked the card in his pocket behind his pack of cigarettes and bent down to  pick up a pair of fencing pliers, “I look forward to it son. Thanks for the trip down Alberta’s prairie trails better known by this ole cowpoke as memory lane.”

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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After 635 days, I’m not sure where to start. 

It’s probably best to start with an apology.

As the author of a blog, I had an obligation to advise you, about my unplanned absence.  Instead, I unintentionally ghosted you. It was inexcusable.  Can you find it in your hearts to forgive me for the length of my inexplicable sabbatical?

Can I even pen something you would care to read after that length of time?

I feel like an imposter sitting in front of this computer screen; once again the author with trembling fingertips hovering over the keyboard while anticipating the excitement of unleashing words.  I am having trouble settling in. Words didn’t abandon me. Instead, they were compiling day after day only waiting for the moment I would allow them to flow forward onto the page. It’s like an impromptu meeting which leads to an unsolicited script.  Where do I start?

I’ve often been told that I have a gift with words. To me, writing isn’t a gift.  It’s an actual calling.  There’s something inside me like a magnet that draws me to put words on a blank piece of paper. I literally cannot help myself.  Will this be a gifted piece of literature or an utter failure?

Could I actually be an imposter? At the moment, I definitely have imposter syndrome!

I’ve been missing in action for almost two years as a publishing author. Maybe I’ve lost the knack – another storyteller vanishing quietly into the ethos of history.  I hadn’t intended to be gone so long while pursuing other interests and for that, I owe you more than a deeply profound, heartfelt apology.

I owe you words, a vocabulary of them. 

Holy, 635 days! That’s nearly two years worth of compiled experiences and observations to share! Let’s see if I still have what it takes to tell a story.

Many of you who follow, ‘The Trefoil Muse,’ would like to know where I’ve been, how I am and why I literally disappeared into an unknown abyss without explanation – no words at all. It’s a very strange scenario for a writer.

I’m not sure I can explain it fully. Honestly, it’s a mystery. Even to me!

I didn’t just wander down a path less travelled. Rather, it was more of a migration toward something new and exciting.

The avenue I decided to pursue required me to spread my wings and fly in an advanced, innovative technological field. Needless to say, I am one of the first female pilots of Commercial RPAS (Remotely Piloted Aircraft Systems) in Canada.  I am very proud of this fact.  However, the field is new and ever-changing with a surprising amount of competition.  Dedication to ones flying skill is paramount not to mention the wherewithal it takes to stay on par with ongoing programming changes.  Technology advances at a maniacal speed. Flying a RPAS requires in depth knowledge with quick thinking, catlike prowess when focusing and huge ongoing learning curves at all times coupled with moments of extreme frustration. Despite all efforts to the contrary, let’s face it, we cannot control Mother Nature! While I excel in the technological field, it is overtly time consuming as it can take 24/7 commitment which leaves little time for other interests. Anyone now days can understand the ups and downs regarding technology, especially if you live and work in a rural area, so I won’t drone on about it.  The short story is that I burned out to the point of unplugging and not wanting to see a computerized anything.

There is nothing worse than dreading a job you once enjoyed. 

The other side of that is that if you enjoy what you are doing, it isn’t a job at all. 

My brain needed a rest. 

I needed to unplug from technology.

It turned into a very healthy choice.  It’s been awesome! The break allowed me to pursue other interests and hobbies.  I experimented with new mediums. I’ve learned that I really like to work with wood; whittling, relief carving, pyrography, weaving and painting.  There’s something about the smell of wood, not to mention the excitement I feel when watching my project come to fruition. It is only akin to the feeling I get when having written something extraordinary to share with you.

I have missed my blog.  I miss painting with words and weaving sentences into stories.  But, most of all, I miss you!

This is the six hundredth and thirty fifth day.

Can I still write something you would like to read? 

I look out the window and see a magical wonderland.

Will you forgive me fully if I write something beautiful now?

Snow is falling today. It’s the type of glittering snowfall that makes me feel nostalgia. White feathery flakes are drifting down from the heavens. They are thick, heavy flakes; laden with moisture.  It always makes me wonder if Angels are molting when feathery thick snowfall like this falls upon our barren dry land near the end of a mild autumn; it’s almost like it was heaven sent. Perhaps it is the answer to this prairie dwellers prayer.

We need moisture out here on the Alberta prairie, any moisture we got earlier this year dried up long ago then we entered back into drought like conditions.  Snow is a welcomed sight to my weary eyes. It gives me something to look at other than dirt, yellow grass and barren trees.  I am enjoying how the outside world looks covered in a downy quilt of white snow.

Surprisingly, a flock of Canadian geese just flew low over the house – dark, shadow like figures with undulating wings cascading through the milky atmospheric haze.  It appears that this particular flock of geese is having trouble navigating.  Instead of their typical V shape, they are a honking chaotic mass of disorganization flapping crazily along a now white colored landscape as if blinded by heavy falling snow.  Everything about this scenario seems unusual including the fact that these geese have not migrated south yet. They appear to be lost.  

My Canadian geese sightings have been scarce this year and the few gaggles that I have seen are similar to this sighting. The flocks seem confused – there is a lot of flapping and honking but, none are listening to the other while crowding each other so closely that they are blinded to what lies ahead. Everyone wants to be a leader but nobody actually wants to lead.  Proving that just because you want to lead doesn’t mean that you can or should – bad leaders are dangerous.  My hesitant guess with this flock is that they are lacking an appropriate leader which has caused chaos. Eventually, out of chaos comes clarity.  May a qualified or experienced leader appear at the helm soon to guide our feathered Canadians home in a successful migration. 

Unusual sightings and observations have meanings to a mystic or muse such as myself.  The symbolic quality of a bird such as goose equals storytelling, fertility and fidelity, symbol of eight and infinity.

So here I am as an author magically appearing on day 635, feeling nostalgic as I watch the snow fall while observing geese and painting with words to create another storytelling extravaganza with an infinite number of words – a vocabulary of them.

Will I be back or will I just disappear again? 

The symbol of Goose is 8.  I will commit to publishing at least eight new stories in the upcoming year. The symbol 8 also signifies infinity….  (There may be a plethora of words coming for you to enjoy.)

Thank-you all for your loyal support, past and present – even during my neglectful absence I noticed my stats were active.  I appreciate all of the visitors to my blog and hope you continue to enjoy my penmanship in the future!

Again, please forgive me for my lengthy absence!

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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Barbed wire fences are boundaries used to stop others from trespassing or encroaching on our space.  They are like the personal boundaries we use to help to enhance our lives or define our worth. Boundaries set limits – dividing lines or rules we set for ourselves within relationships.

Healthy boundaries allow us to say, “No,” to others when needed.  At times, it takes inner strength and courage to enforce or defend one’s boundaries against the barbs of another. Healthy boundaries allow comfortable conversations within close relationships and enable us to communicate when others are teetering on the line or crossing boundaries which make us feel uncomfortable.

Only you can determine where the fine line of your boundary is. To set your boundaries or guidelines, find your personal balance.  (What will you allow into your life and what causes you discomfort?)  These guidelines will bring you a sense of peace. Boundaries help us define our personal safe space and warn us of imminent danger. When we are aware of our own boundaries, and are intimately familiar with them, we can then share by guiding others in we expect from them or what we can tolerate.  When necessary we can then issue steadfast reminders or warnings when confronted with those types of intolerable behaviors which infringe on our inner peace.

When confronted with intolerable behavior, communicate where your boundaries lie; be calm, firm and clear about what you need.  Clear and reasonable consequences need to be relayed to the trespasser.

If you continually encroach on set boundaries breaking another’s trust, there may be no way to mend fences.  You may in fact risk being ejected from that person’s life. Try to be kind, not cruel.

“Boundaries are not binding or controlling the actions of another. They are stating that if said actions continue, I will not be in your life.”  J. Mike Fields

Be respectful of others.

Think about your boundaries. Treat others the way you yourself would like to be treated.  Kindness matters.

Remember, you are important. Honor your boundaries. Be kind to yourself but be kind to others as well.

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

 

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Life is a little like threading a needle.

Sometimes, you just need to stab the eye of the beast before you can proceed – then you can make, mend or decorate with stitches to create a thing of beauty.

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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Shining through the darkness.

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Beneath the branches of a gnarled old tree, she bends over a cauldron, stirring and stirring and stirring her brew.  The wind howls, woo, woo while monsters dance among the pumpkin patch.

The night is dark and full of shadows along the hidden path during an ebony night with a full moon.

To all the boojums, grumpkins and snarks; may you receive goodness and light from the witch’s hand for the brew contains protection, sweetness and magic.

 

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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Everyone makes mistakes. 

Some people own up to them, others point fingers.

When you are impeccable, you take responsibility your actions.

Words have power.

They can either motivate one’s mind with positivity and inspiration or plant fear and doubt in order to create drama and negativity.

The human race is rarely perfect.

We have faults. Most of us are a work in progress.

As we strive towards perfection, let’s try to live impeccably.

To live impeccably means that you live in accordance with the highest standards of propriety; that you are faultless. 

Remember to be responsible for your actions.  Be impeccable. Use positive words.  Create some beauty today.

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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It was the eve of the Autumn Equinox.  Anna stood in the middle of the vast prairie admiring a hedgerow of wild buffaloberry bushes.  Vibrant red berries popped among pale green leaves and thorny branches.  Burdened with a bounty of tart buffaloberries, branches bent toward the ground. The stout bushes were loaded with berries ripe for picking. Crimson berry clusters stood in stark contrast to an otherwise colorless, drought-ridden prairie landscape. Anna picked several handfuls of the sour treats, and ate them, her face puckering in delight with each mouthful. Buffaloberries were an unanticipated reward – however, she wasn’t prepared to gather berries and it was getting late.

 As the sun began to set, colors glanced off of the smoky horizon adding golden pink and orange hues to the skyline.  A crescent moon began to rise at an oblique angle on the eastern side of the prairie. 

The evening colors were beautiful; a prelude of what colors autumn would be sharing at dusk.  Anna couldn’t resist.  She took a snapshot with her camera. Unfortunately though, she was not a professional photographer. The picture, a once in a lifetime moment in time, turned out to be a mere façade of what she’d witnessed with her own eyes.  Disappointed, she added the photo to her album and closed the cover.

It was days later when Anna re-opened the album.  Feeling dejected, she glanced at the dismal prairie photograph and closed her eyes breathing deeply as she relaxed.  As she counted to ten, the world faded to black.  That is when the magic happened. When Anna opened her eyes again, she saw the picture anew. It only took twelve seconds for her to change her perspective and see the magic.

Anna’s secret for magical change:

  1. Close your eyes
  2. Count to ten
  3. Open your eyes

See how a picture can change with a fresh new perspective in twelve seconds:

 

 

With the changing season be sure to rest and relax. Discover Anna’s secret yourself.

Close your eyes and breathe.

Calm your mind.

Let the world fade to black. Then open your eyes and see the fresh new colors autumn has to offer. 

Enjoy nature’s bounty.

A change of season is much like a change of perspective – it adds color to one’s life!

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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I don’t really have a lot to say this week. But, I believe that I’ve come up with a simply ingenious idea.

If we set a flame to all of the political gas lighting going on in the world, we’d have an alternative heat source.

Or, we could just snuff out all of the hot air and there would no longer be a climate emergency.

The current sources of heat are fire, sun, object friction and electricity.

Gas lighting would make a fifth and very valid heat source around the globe.  Why let it all go to waste!

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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