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I’ve been entrusted with a very special gift.  Papa asked me to take care of it for him. It’s a gift for my Nana.

We decorated their house today for Christmas.  Well; Nana and I decorated – Papa sat in his big easy chair and grumbled in his best hum drum Grinch like renditions.

Papa’s attitude doesn’t seem to bother Nana.  She’s got him figured out.  She absolutely has his number. She’s known the key to him for a very long time.  Let’s just say, she’s one smart Christmas cookie.

My Papa has a loud booming voice. His voice can be frightening if you don’t know him like we do.  Nana explained to us Grandchildren a long time ago that Papa was like the marshmallow man – hard and crusty on the outside and soft and mushy on the inside.  So, we aren’t fooled by Papa’s loud cranky act anymore.  Like Nana, we all know that he’s just a big old softie.

“I don’t know why you put yourself through this every year,” he harrumphed to Nana after grouchily ordering her to move out of the way of the television because she was blocking his viewing pleasure.

“I like the extra light and glitter from the tree,” Nana replied demurely.  “Not to mention the vibrant Christmas colors and ambience it brings during the darkness of winter,” she smiled.  “Feel the love,” Nana giggled as she threw and imaginary air kiss in his direction.  Papa shifted uncomfortably in his chair and pretended to be irritated by Nana’s gesture. Their drama made me laugh.  As grumpy as Papa acts, he is enamored with Nana!

To be honest, the small living room was a disaster.  Boxes of ornaments, ribbon and tinsel littered the coffee table, couch and floor.  My Grandparent’s two dogs were curled up on what seemed the only available space of carpet and their cat lay beneath their artificial tree in the corner. The tree at the moment was barren other than twinkling colorful lights.

It seemed like disorganized confusion to me but Nana knew what lay stored in every box.  I was excited to help decorate their tree.

“This is the box we’ll start with,” Nana grinned opening an old shoe box like it was a pirate trunk holding treasure.

Just then, the oven timer sounded.

My Nana is an expert at multi-tasking.  She was baking and doing laundry while decorating the house with me for Christmas.

“I’ll be right back,” she chirped cheerily as she floated over the sleeping dogs without disturbing so much as one hair on their backs then around the myriad of boxes littering her path to the kitchen with nimble agility that surprised me.  My eyes could have deceived me but for a second, I was sure she had wings! I blinked though and they disappeared. It could only have been my imagination.

The house smelled divine. (If there’s a heaven, I’m sure it smells like Nana’s house. No matter the time of year, there’s always an alluring, mouth watering scent in the air.)  During Christmas season, it smells sweet, spicy and mint chocolaty with undertones of smoky pine.  Earlier today, Nana had baked ginger snaps and shortbread cookies.  Now, she was pulling butter tarts out of the oven.  She’d confided in me earlier that she wasn’t fond of butter tarts because they are too sweet for her liking, but that they were a favorite of Papa’s so she made them for him as a special treat every Christmas.

Butter tarts have raisons.

 I don’t like raisons.

Speaking of raisons, you have to watch my Nana.  She is extremely kind with an excellent sense of humor but can be a devious trickster. Being a smart cookie, you never see Nana’s pranks coming!  Let me explain:

One time, when I was younger and visiting, Nana gave me some cookies for a snack. Before I tried one, I asked what type they were. She said they were dried grape cookies.  I do like grapes!  They’re delicious.  So, I tried a bite. The cookie was delectable. Part way through my second cookie, Nana asked if I knew what a dried grape was.  Being an innocent, I said, “No.”  You can’t imagine my horror when Nana, smiling from ear to ear, told me that a dried grape was the same as a raison!  Then, she had the audacity to say that is important to try ingredients in different ways because you might like it one way but not another, and at least now, I would know that I liked raison cookies!

Another time, she got me to taste straight cocoa before she mixed it into icing sugar for a cake she was frosting. It was disgusting, bitter and dry. When she tried to get me to taste the chocolate frosting, my eyes bulged and I shook my head.  Again, she grinned from ear to ear and actually started to laugh as she tried to convince me that this spoonful would taste good. I didn’t really trust her but I tried a taste.  The icing sugar had transformed the cocoa into something wonderful.  Still, I’m not sure I’ve forgiven her for the bitter cocoa tasting and, I don’t like raisons in butter tarts!  There are a few in our family who don’t, so Nana bakes a special batch for us without ‘dried grapes,’ thank goodness!

I can see from where I’m standing near the Christmas tree that Nana has the tarts out of the oven and has placed them on the cooling rack.  Now, she’s heading to the laundry room to put wet clothes in the dryer.  There is a door going outside from the laundry room and apparently the dogs think she is taking them for a walk. The living room has erupted into chaos as both dogs try to beat the other to the door first, trampling the cat who decided it should check out the new eats in the kitchen along with Papa.

Looks like Papa lost the trek to the kitchen. Their big lab just bumped him as he was about to stand-up knocking him off balance and pushing him back into his easy chair.  He’s perturbed and trying very hard not to cuss in front of me.

I can’t help it.  It’s comedy at its finest.  I burst out laughing.  “I’m sorry, Papa. It really looked funny.”

Papa really looked grouchy now.  He had his best Grinch face on.

Nana re-emerged from the laundry room completely unaware of the chaos.  She then arranged some cookies and tarts onto a plate for our taste testing pleasure.

When she came back into the living room, she placed the baked goodies on a coffee table near Papa.

“Careful, the tarts are still pretty warm,” she warned.  “I’d have put more of the shortbread cookies out but it seems someone couldn’t resist them.”

Papa finally smiled.  “You really do make the best shortbread cookies I’ve ever tasted,” he gushed without guilt.

“Yes,” she chided.  “I’ve found the key to your heart.  It’s your stomach! That’s the last of the shortbread cookies and it’s the second batch.  Now, I’m out of butter and can’t make more unless we get some groceries.”

“We’ll go later,” Papa motioned in my direction. “I have a bit of last minute shopping to do still.”

“That sounds great.  I’ll make a small list for you to pick-up and I’ll finish decorating while you’re gone,” Nana nodded in agreement, “but, I’d like to get the ornaments on the tree before you leave.”

Nana smiled as she pulled a little ornament out of the old shoe box.  “This has always been a favorite of mine. Your Dad made this when he was in Elementary school.” She held the little ornament gently.  It was a tiny woolen mouse with felt ears lying in a hazel nut shell. As she hung it on the tree I looked inside the box to see many of the little trinkets and ornaments made by us grandchildren as well.  Most of them I recognized as they decorated the tree yearly like the little felt snowman and penguin or the Plaster of Paris hand prints of each grandchild painted then hung with a ribbon.  A variety of angels, glittering balls, snowflakes and icicles lay inside the box along with bells.

“I like to put the bells close to the bottom of the tree,” Nana advised.  “The cat’s favorite spot is under the tree while its up and she plays with them. I like hearing her make the bells ring. Did you know that some people believe that when a bell rings, a new angel is born?  I think we can use as many of them as we can get.” Nana rang the little bell furiously.  “I believe there are multitudes of angels around at Christmas time. They help to open people’s hearts and spread love.  Can you feel them? I can!”

“Did you and Nana ever have real trees?” I asked Papa trying to involve him in the decorating process.

He and Nana exchanged knowing glances and started to laugh.

“Our Charlie Brown trees,” they said in unison.

“Yes, we did,” Papa shared.

“Every one of them had character,” Nana laughed.

“All of them had some type of defect or huge branchless holes! We never managed to get the perfect tree.” Papa stated mater-of-factly,   “But, your Nana managed to make them look pretty good!”

“The first year we got married,” Nana shared, “we didn’t have a lot of money so we had no tree stand. Instead, we had a bucket filled with rocks to stand it in but it kept falling over. Finally, I got some string wound it around the tree and tacked the string to the wall.  That tree had more than one bald spot which I filled with tinsel. It actually turned out to be quite beautiful.”

“Then there’s the year I ran over an evergreen tree at the end of our driveway with the semi-trailer,” Papa shook his head and rolled his eyes. “It was flattened on one side with no branches but your Nana being who she is took an ax and finished cutting it down. Then she drug it up the driveway to the house and decorated it for Christmas.”

“Well, I couldn’t see killing another tree when you’d already mowed one down!” Nana defended.  “Besides, that turned out to be the most magical tree we ever had.  I put the flattened side toward the wall.  You couldn’t really tell…”

“Yes you could!” Papa argued incredulous.

Nana’s eyes sparkled and she started to giggle.  “Do you remember the presents around that tree by the time Christmas came? And, we had so much company. It was such a memorable year. That was the most magical little tree we ever had.  Plus, I believe that’s the last real tree we had.  After that, we got an artificial one because out here on the prairie, trees are hard to grow so I’ve come to appreciate the ones that grow everywhere else.  It’s such a shame to cut them down.”

An unusual softness seemed to envelop Papa as we shared memories of their Charlie brown trees and past Christmas’ not to mention that he seemed to really be enjoying the baking within his easy reach.

I watched as he wolfed down another butter tart eyes alight with every bite of the sweet morsel.  Nana being the smart cookie she is knew full well what the key to Papa was.  His hum drum Grinch behavior had never fooled her for an instant.

Finally, Papa and I left Nana and made the 45 minute jaunt to town for groceries and a bit of last minute shopping.  They live on a farm away from the hectic towns and cities where the landscape is pristine with clean fallen snow. It’s extremely pretty and I enjoy the drive into town. It’s fun shopping with Papa.  He buys in bulk and you never really know what he’s going purchase – groceries aside.

We arrived in the nearest town glistening with snow, lights and festive Christmas decorations.  People milled along sidewalks and clustered here and there perusing store windows before entering.  Papa and I hit the grocery store and quickly amassed Nana’s shopping list then we headed for the mall.

Strained, rushed shoppers clamored along the hallway mindlessly bumping into one another.  We just drifted along with the flow until something caught Papa’s eye and he stopped.

“Let’s go in here,” he pointed.  The store was bright and adorned from ceiling to floor with Christmas glamour.  Papa went straight to the counter and spoke to the clerk who then retrieved the item Papa requested from a backroom in the store.   I was surprised at the speed of the purchase.  As well, it was the end of the shopping excursion.

“Did you know,” Papa asked on the way out of the mall, “that God put angels on earth without wings so that they could blend in and not be discovered?”

“No, I didn’t,” I answered confused.

“Your Nana’s an angel. Even after 40 years, she still has the key to my heart,” he whispered. “If you catch her in the light just right, you can see her wings.” He confided in awe.

When we got back to the truck, Papa handed me the gift. “I’m going to trust you to take care of this gift for me until Christmas. I commissioned it for your Nana months ago.  This will be our little secret.” He opened the gift box to reveal its contents. Lying inside on a soft bed of cotton was a small golden key embossed with wings shaped like a heart at its crown. Down the stem of the key words were engraved, “For my angel.”

I’ve been entrusted with a very special gift.  Papa asked me to take care of it for him. It’s a gift for my Nana but it’s an actual key to Papa’s heart.  This gift giving season is going to be epic.

As Papa bent over to start the ignition, the light touched his head just right. That’s when it happened – I saw his halo!

May you all have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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After 635 days, I’m not sure where to start. 

It’s probably best to start with an apology.

As the author of a blog, I had an obligation to advise you, about my unplanned absence.  Instead, I unintentionally ghosted you. It was inexcusable.  Can you find it in your hearts to forgive me for the length of my inexplicable sabbatical?

Can I even pen something you would care to read after that length of time?

I feel like an imposter sitting in front of this computer screen; once again the author with trembling fingertips hovering over the keyboard while anticipating the excitement of unleashing words.  I am having trouble settling in. Words didn’t abandon me. Instead, they were compiling day after day only waiting for the moment I would allow them to flow forward onto the page. It’s like an impromptu meeting which leads to an unsolicited script.  Where do I start?

I’ve often been told that I have a gift with words. To me, writing isn’t a gift.  It’s an actual calling.  There’s something inside me like a magnet that draws me to put words on a blank piece of paper. I literally cannot help myself.  Will this be a gifted piece of literature or an utter failure?

Could I actually be an imposter? At the moment, I definitely have imposter syndrome!

I’ve been missing in action for almost two years as a publishing author. Maybe I’ve lost the knack – another storyteller vanishing quietly into the ethos of history.  I hadn’t intended to be gone so long while pursuing other interests and for that, I owe you more than a deeply profound, heartfelt apology.

I owe you words, a vocabulary of them. 

Holy, 635 days! That’s nearly two years worth of compiled experiences and observations to share! Let’s see if I still have what it takes to tell a story.

Many of you who follow, ‘The Trefoil Muse,’ would like to know where I’ve been, how I am and why I literally disappeared into an unknown abyss without explanation – no words at all. It’s a very strange scenario for a writer.

I’m not sure I can explain it fully. Honestly, it’s a mystery. Even to me!

I didn’t just wander down a path less travelled. Rather, it was more of a migration toward something new and exciting.

The avenue I decided to pursue required me to spread my wings and fly in an advanced, innovative technological field. Needless to say, I am one of the first female pilots of Commercial RPAS (Remotely Piloted Aircraft Systems) in Canada.  I am very proud of this fact.  However, the field is new and ever-changing with a surprising amount of competition.  Dedication to ones flying skill is paramount not to mention the wherewithal it takes to stay on par with ongoing programming changes.  Technology advances at a maniacal speed. Flying a RPAS requires in depth knowledge with quick thinking, catlike prowess when focusing and huge ongoing learning curves at all times coupled with moments of extreme frustration. Despite all efforts to the contrary, let’s face it, we cannot control Mother Nature! While I excel in the technological field, it is overtly time consuming as it can take 24/7 commitment which leaves little time for other interests. Anyone now days can understand the ups and downs regarding technology, especially if you live and work in a rural area, so I won’t drone on about it.  The short story is that I burned out to the point of unplugging and not wanting to see a computerized anything.

There is nothing worse than dreading a job you once enjoyed. 

The other side of that is that if you enjoy what you are doing, it isn’t a job at all. 

My brain needed a rest. 

I needed to unplug from technology.

It turned into a very healthy choice.  It’s been awesome! The break allowed me to pursue other interests and hobbies.  I experimented with new mediums. I’ve learned that I really like to work with wood; whittling, relief carving, pyrography, weaving and painting.  There’s something about the smell of wood, not to mention the excitement I feel when watching my project come to fruition. It is only akin to the feeling I get when having written something extraordinary to share with you.

I have missed my blog.  I miss painting with words and weaving sentences into stories.  But, most of all, I miss you!

This is the six hundredth and thirty fifth day.

Can I still write something you would like to read? 

I look out the window and see a magical wonderland.

Will you forgive me fully if I write something beautiful now?

Snow is falling today. It’s the type of glittering snowfall that makes me feel nostalgia. White feathery flakes are drifting down from the heavens. They are thick, heavy flakes; laden with moisture.  It always makes me wonder if Angels are molting when feathery thick snowfall like this falls upon our barren dry land near the end of a mild autumn; it’s almost like it was heaven sent. Perhaps it is the answer to this prairie dwellers prayer.

We need moisture out here on the Alberta prairie, any moisture we got earlier this year dried up long ago then we entered back into drought like conditions.  Snow is a welcomed sight to my weary eyes. It gives me something to look at other than dirt, yellow grass and barren trees.  I am enjoying how the outside world looks covered in a downy quilt of white snow.

Surprisingly, a flock of Canadian geese just flew low over the house – dark, shadow like figures with undulating wings cascading through the milky atmospheric haze.  It appears that this particular flock of geese is having trouble navigating.  Instead of their typical V shape, they are a honking chaotic mass of disorganization flapping crazily along a now white colored landscape as if blinded by heavy falling snow.  Everything about this scenario seems unusual including the fact that these geese have not migrated south yet. They appear to be lost.  

My Canadian geese sightings have been scarce this year and the few gaggles that I have seen are similar to this sighting. The flocks seem confused – there is a lot of flapping and honking but, none are listening to the other while crowding each other so closely that they are blinded to what lies ahead. Everyone wants to be a leader but nobody actually wants to lead.  Proving that just because you want to lead doesn’t mean that you can or should – bad leaders are dangerous.  My hesitant guess with this flock is that they are lacking an appropriate leader which has caused chaos. Eventually, out of chaos comes clarity.  May a qualified or experienced leader appear at the helm soon to guide our feathered Canadians home in a successful migration. 

Unusual sightings and observations have meanings to a mystic or muse such as myself.  The symbolic quality of a bird such as goose equals storytelling, fertility and fidelity, symbol of eight and infinity.

So here I am as an author magically appearing on day 635, feeling nostalgic as I watch the snow fall while observing geese and painting with words to create another storytelling extravaganza with an infinite number of words – a vocabulary of them.

Will I be back or will I just disappear again? 

The symbol of Goose is 8.  I will commit to publishing at least eight new stories in the upcoming year. The symbol 8 also signifies infinity….  (There may be a plethora of words coming for you to enjoy.)

Thank-you all for your loyal support, past and present – even during my neglectful absence I noticed my stats were active.  I appreciate all of the visitors to my blog and hope you continue to enjoy my penmanship in the future!

Again, please forgive me for my lengthy absence!

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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Beneath the branches of a gnarled old tree, she bends over a cauldron, stirring and stirring and stirring her brew.  The wind howls, woo, woo while monsters dance among the pumpkin patch.

The night is dark and full of shadows along the hidden path during an ebony night with a full moon.

To all the boojums, grumpkins and snarks; may you receive goodness and light from the witch’s hand for the brew contains protection, sweetness and magic.

 

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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They call me, “Draco,” for I am Dragon.

I see you down there admiring the view.

I felt how your heart leapt for joy when you first set eyes on this mountain meadow.  When you smiled, the world glowed brighter – it was blinding.  Your essence intrigued me.  It made me want to see the world through your eyes.  Dragon eyes don’t see like those of a human unless we are connected.  I have the ability to connect to you.  That is part of my magic. What is it you see?

I must see it with my own eyes and feel it as your heart does.

You can’t see me, at least not yet but you’ve turned toward me and have spotted wild raspberries.  They are short bushes, low to the ground.  The little bushes are loaded with berries despite their size. I watch as you savor the sour sweetness of a raspberry without putting one in your mouth.  I thought only dragon’s could sense taste food without actually eating it.  The flavor of these mountain raspberries made my mouth water. How did you resist? You didn’t even pick one.  You left them for the creatures of the mountain.  It’s been a hot dry summer, the mountain wildlife appreciates that you left their food alone.  Your thoughtful decision made my heart swell. 

I watch you as your eyes scan the mountainside. 

Now, you see me.

There are actually several of us here.  We have camouflaged ourselves upon the mountain side.  The others are sleeping as I keep watch. 

I see we have you intrigued.  You think we are rock pillars.  This made me smile.  It made you smile as well.  Once again, your light blinded me.

You are leaving now.

 How is it you have not left one footprint behind? 

Then I remember as you moved, you floated just above the land. You touched without touching and tasted without tasting.  There is a grace about you. 

The old ones tell tales of your like – legends if you will.  There hasn’t been one like you for centuries.  They say the urge to connect with a magical being is magnetic and immediate.  It happens without thought.  They say when it happens a Dragon will follow, it cannot resist.  I will follow.

You will not see me – at least not yet. When I soar above you it will be as if a cloud has cast a slight shadow over the land. I want to share my magic with you – even though you have magic of your own. My dragon eyes have seen the world anew through you. Now, I wish you could see the world through mine.

ANDronesRUS

We will connect for good eventually.  The bond will be set when we lock our eyes and our hearts become one. Keep your eyes to the sky.  I soar above.

They call me, “Draco,” for I am Dragon.

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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Spring is always a very busy time of year on the prairie. 

That being said, I have been a very busy Bee!

But, don’t get your stinger in a knot; I’ll be back with some new stories soon.

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

 

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Springtime

Cool, crisp,

Sun is bright this morning,

Luminous upon the field,

Rooster’s crow,

Birds sing,

Early day reminders,

Creativity cannot be supervised,

Free flow,

Words fly,

Like a song upon the page,

Springtime,

Promises,

New life begins again.

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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Freedom Convoy – First year Anniversary

I am honoring those who continue to stand up for freedom and peace against

machiavellian political practices.

My ‘tinfoil’ hat’s off to you!

Happy Anniversary!

You make me proud to be Canadian!  Roll on! Honk, Honk

 

To see my original story from one year ago, please click on the link below:

Eighteen Wheels of Freedom

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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Nothing is as black and white as it seems,

If the world seems drab,

Color it,

A picture can paint a thousand words.

 

2023, Welcome to another colorful year!

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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Snow

When all that glitters,

is not gold.

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It has taken me some time to silence the thoughts of others and cipher through their parables and codes.

Social media is inundated with an extraordinary amount of negativity.  Many comments are meant to debilitate the vitality of opponents who dare think outside of the box.  It is easy to attack someone whom you cannot see. 

It is also easier to control those whose faces are covered. It removes the aspects of humanism.  Covering ones nose and mouth deprives the brain of oxygen and weakens soundness of mind.

I suspect the past few years has done irreparable damage to human kind.

(I can still feel the agony of those who withheld their screams of terror and disbelief until their eyes deadened and their hearts hardened.)

It’s easier to follow the masses than it is to stand alone. 

Fear can be a strict task master. It drives groups together but it can also break them apart.

Many people gave up. 

Others allowed themselves to become disabled through the pressure tactics forced upon them. Hypnotized, they consumed propaganda spoon fed to them by daily dose of dishonesty and negativity.   They became the fanatical converts who threatened non-believers. Non-believers were ostracized and pushed into seclusion.

There are many fanatics today that seek continued control over the populous.  They have a surplus of information ordained to frighten the weak into a continued life of subservience. 

They want the masses to move through life like robots – zombies with dead eyes, stiff movements and no heart because when you stunt growth or imagination, there is no individuality – no freedom.  This is called censorship. 

What they do not know is that you cannot cripple the heart or mind of an artist! 

The individual pain each person endures throughout life is precisely the gold that shines through an entrapped mindset to create an artist.  Seclusion is all that is needed to break free of the trap.  When one enters the silence, true beauty is created.  This beauty is art.

Art means something different to everyone.  It is a distinct experience distinguished by you alone. Art heals crippled minds, broken hearts and beckons to the individual in each of us, bringing hope.  

You cannot censor hope!

Hope is a light engrained so deeply within the Universe that death cannot even snuff it out.

Artists know this secret.

 They are able to read between the lines. 

They are the truth seekers.

They are the free-thinkers fanatics want to silence.

You cannot cripple an artist, excluding them or forcing them into silence is a gift. 

Silence is where an artist goes to create beauty.  

We can always use more of them – so please, censor away – for in the end, it will be the artist’s who heal the world with their beautiful stories.

 

Remember:

“Those who speak in parables and code harbour great secrets.”

 

 

Thank-you for following, reading, sharing and commenting – The Trefoil Muse

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